The Journey

When you divorce after twenty years of marriage, you wake up one day and realise that you have gone missing. That is not a gender specific thing, it applies universally I would imagine. You entered your union with the hope of conciliation and compromise, intent on building a family. And within that paradigm, something vanishes.

It’s not the same for all. As Jack Water the central character of Looking for Eden, muses that people fall into five categories:

  1. Devoutly single through fear of being hurt. Afraid of commitment. – Jarvis
  2. Suffocating in marriage and life and desperate to get off. – Ted
  3. Divorced, full of regret and lonely. – Me
  4. Strangely happy after twenty years of marriage. – ?
  5. Dead. – Stan

Post-divorce, you don’t enter a process of deconstruction, because you are there already. You just enter a kind of breathless torpor as you learn how to live again – the start of your own personal reconstruction. It can be a bitter, remorseful place.

And you begin to question everything. And in all that questioning, the search, the answers, the required wisdom that you need, it comes to you as a slow dribble – there are no epiphanies, no eureka moments – it’s like squeezing a rotten apple and the occasional pip comes out.

Which makes sense of course, because you are Looking for Eden.

Author: Dominic Penhale

Blog for the new novel 'Looking for Eden' by author Dominic Penhale

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